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Recently really been dissapointed by one fo my closed frens...we used to be closed as bestfrens. But now its seems like thing are different. We no longer having a conversation as last time... Its been hard to having a conversation like we used to be .... I been wondering...y like this ? Does people change whn time goes by ? or izzit i the one thats changing ? does friendship will always stay 4ever ? when u living in diff circle or places...did thats kind bond u having before will change ? will its become closer or opposite way !!! Or just i the one feeling sensitive ? maybe thing are still the same....just the way i look & feel different already ? not so sure...confuse !!! Keep having a difficulties in connecting with others...turn up ppls always make me dissapointed... make me sad..am i the one hoping too much ? asking too much ? i try my best to be open...but its always turn up i moving bck further more while i make a step .... when all this will getting better ? or as in no...

Recently ....really feeling vry down....totally with unhappy mood. Its seems...do wht also not gonna make me feel better. Reaching same points of life which my ms frens "eva" told me its like the end...she advised me to take a break...make some dreams...have so plans to look forward too...den everthing will be fine again... Really ? its just that simple ? But y after this all years...i kinda have the feelings tats...i keep moving on at the same circle...round & round....whrs i think i already done my best ...yet some'day i realise...i stucked again...with the same feeling...no way out... hopeless. But , i still taking "eva" advised...to give myself a break. So i drived out frm home...without any plan to go anywhere....dunno how long its will take....totally unplanned break. Out withtout getting any permision frm my parents...which i know will make them unhappy...but ist just feel like i need to do this is this way...i'm sorry daddy & mummy & si...