On the road ~~~seeking for a place whr i belong ...

Recently ....really feeling vry down....totally with unhappy mood. Its seems...do wht also not gonna make me feel better. Reaching same points of life which my ms frens "eva" told me its like the end...she advised me to take a break...make some dreams...have so plans to look forward too...den everthing will be fine again... Really ? its just that simple ? But y after this all years...i kinda have the feelings tats...i keep moving on at the same circle...round & round....whrs i think i already done my best ...yet some'day i realise...i stucked again...with the same feeling...no way out... hopeless.

But , i still taking "eva" advised...to give myself a break. So i drived out frm home...without any plan to go anywhere....dunno how long its will take....totally unplanned break. Out withtout getting any permision frm my parents...which i know will make them unhappy...but ist just feel like i need to do this is this way...i'm sorry daddy & mummy & sis & bros...

Started last week...till todate...i been to many places...visiting diff frens...seing diff places...yet...i still feel stucked deeply...Although surrounding with alots nice ppls...which i know they are really great ppl...but still kinda feel i lefted alone in this space...i dun really know how to explain...but its just feel not right all the time...always got the feeling i not belong to the place at the current time.
And dun know y & whr ???? always got such ???? in my mind. Feel really dead...

I dun know anyone else still facing the same problem as me ? Maybe have...maybe not...
But sometimes i just feel tats no one understand u ....no one connected to u ...no one existing in my worlds except myself.